I know I'm a TROUBLE

Sometimes I think that I'm just a trouble for everybody around me. I'm just a guy who's holding other people back, the one who's slowing everybody down, the one who's affecting people's decision to think about me first before thinking about what's good for them. Makes me wonder why I even exist in the first place. If I am just gonna give an endless series of troubles to people, why don't I just gone? It's not fun wahtching other people get into trouble because of me, and I'm not doing whatsoever to pay them back. I feel really useless and helpless.



I'm sorry. :')

Rainy night spill out

It's getting harder and harder each day for me. All I have to hold on is my spirit to survive, little it may be, I have to believe and depend on it. Just when I thought that things are getting better, actually they are still not that good. People say, life is about making choices, easy of hard ones, it doesn't matter. When we're young, we make trivial decisions like wanting for toys from our parents, asking them to take us to places and many more, but the elders just think that we're asking for silly things and they just ignore us, while we think what we're asking is like the most important thing, and nobody cared. So we sulk!

But those are childhood days. Now that I'm older, it feels like everytime I'm making decision, people are getting affected. There are people that are not happy with the decision I made. Back then when I was little, what I decide is for myself. Yes it's selfish, but I know what I want best for myself. Now, some decisions that I made, I'm not sure about it myself. Sometimes I feel like I made decisions just to please everyone else around me. To make sure that they're happy with my choice, well not for my happiness clearly.
But I know that I have to be stronger each day. The decisions I made, the consequences are on me. I bare with it alone and nobody will care how much I pain I'm having. Sometimes I do think that people thinking negative about me can be made into motivation. To always make me down to earth and know where I stand, so that I don't stray from who I am.

As for you guys out there, nobody in this world will be as easy as we've ever imagined, and not everything will go according to our plans. We have to be ready for any possibilities, and make backup plans just in case things are falling apart. One thing that we always have to remember is to make wise decisions in our life.

Love Note

Sometimes songs undertand us better than anybody else. Whenever I lay in bed at night and just thinking about whatever comes to mind, I always end up listening to songs that can calm me down. I just found a song from Chase Coy titled Love Note and the lyrics just hit me.

"Sometimes I think I need to get away,
Pack all my things,
Get on a plane,
Head off alone one summer day,
Never look back at the town i called home,
Maybe visit california,
I hear its nice there in the summer,
But all the waves and coastline and sunset shores would just make me miss you more."

Good night!

Wordless Sunday

Dari Melaka ke Ho Chi Minh

Dah sangat lama tak menaip kat sini..rasa macam baru buat blog! sorry blog kesayanganku..hahaha

Hari ni aku nak share something yang aku recently experienced.

That thing is trip ke Ho Chi Minh City.

Tau Ho Chi Minh kat mana? Kat Vietnam lerrrr...

I was there with my classmates..trip kelas under subject Tourism Marketing.

Taknak cter lebih pasal subjek tu...haha

Aku share gambar2 ikut kronologi je la k... macam malas plak nak menaip. LOL

SEBELUM BERTOLAK & 1st DAY

Kitorang berkampung kat LCCT seawal pukul 3 pagi..flight pukul 7. maka dengan tak mandinya kami duduk macam orang merempat kat LCCT. maklumla mampu naik Air Asia je..tak mampu naik MAS kan. hahaha...that day unfortunately sangat mekdi tak bukak! Damn! tak tau ke kitorang lapar and perlukan tempat nak menunggu? then boleh plak hari tu kau tutup...

muka2 seronok nak boarding (tak sedar diri tak mandi)

Pukul 8.30 waktu Vietnam kitorang pun sampai Ho Chi Minh. Jet lag! haha...the only not so good thing about this country is the officers are not as friendly. senyum pun tak ok! sangat eerrr errrrr

semua busuk lagi!

First of all tour leader bawak group pegi city tour..central post office, notradame, and Hard Rock cafe 

                                  

                                  

Lepas habis city tour adalah lunch time! Lunch first kat restoran melayu...and of course la halal. lepas lunch kitorang pegi check in hotel! hotel tak jauh pun dari restoran..jalan kaki!

makan dulu! 

                                  

Dalam pukul 2 kitorang gerak pegi Ho Chi Minh International University. Dapat rehat kejap je and mostly tak sempat mandi..sumpah rasa busuk! hahaha

Honestly speaking masa buat lawatan kejap kat universiti ni sangat best! tak expect pun dapat sambutan macam tu dari diorang. Masa sampai kitorang di-pairkan dengan sorg student..aku dapat pair ngan Thanh Thai Nguyen..budak bisnes!

Kitorang sempat buat performance dikir barat and tarian..last sekali joget lambak. best bawak student IU menari sekali.

dikir barat la konon..

                                  

joget lambak uolllsss!!

                                 

UiTM KBM + IU

                                  

bye2...sob sob

so that's pretty much our first day. malam tu lepas lunch semua pakat nak jalan2 kat night market tapi semua tido..kepenatan! 

2nd DAY

Hari kedua kitorang pegi jauh dari bandar..pegi Chu Chi Tunnel. (sebut kuci). Terowong masa zaman perang Vietnam-Amerika dulu. 

Dalam banyak2 tempat kat tong sampah jugak jadi pilihan

                                                                     

                                  

                                 

Memandangkan lubang terowong tu sangat kecik, so orang2 tertentu je boleh masuk. Antaranya aku..tapi even for me, lubang tu masih lagi kecik.gelap plak tu..seram!!!

                                           

                                           

Balik dari terowong tu semua berduyun pegi shopping..dah tour leader bawak g shopping nak buat macam mana ye dok!

                                 

malam tu kitorang makan paper rice..macam popiah!

                               

tawaf berkali2 kat tempat yg sama tapi tak beli pape jugak...

                               

3rd DAY

Hari ketiga group pegi melawat sungai mekong..the most important river kat vietnam.
Kat sungai mekong ni kitorang singgah kat pulau kecik kat tepi2 dia..aku tak sure la tempat tu layak dipanggil pulau sebab kat sungai kan, takkan ada pulau kat tengah2..lain la laut. tapi whatever!
1st place yang kitorang singgah adalah tempat orang produce madu. dapat minum honey tea free! bergelas2 aku minum..

                                 

honey lemon tea!

                               

Lepas puas minum teh madu, kitorang gerak pegi kilang buat gula2 kelapa..dapat la rasa gula2 tu sikit. nak beli macam tak berbaloi pulak. haha..sorry takde gambar!!

diorang tengah nyanyi lagu anak kampung..tapi sebutan tak betul sikit! LOL

Then kitorang dibawak plak pegi satu tempat macam restoran..kononnya nak dijamukan buah2 tempatan/tropika. hari tu dapat buah naga, mangga, longan and nenas..tapi honestly aku cakap tak sedap. isi buah longan sikit, kurang manis bla bla bla..tapi yang bestnya ada performance! siap nyanyi lagu anak kampung lagi..haha

                                   

Lepas makan buah n tengok performance tu kitorang pegi belakang kedai tu...alangkah terkejutnya bila nampak pemandangan yang aku sangat familiar! mangrove!!! macam kat kampung aku jerrr! pastu sampai la kat jeti tu..ada banyak sampan. long story short, kitorang divide ikut group naik satu sampan..makcik yang dayung sampan ada 2 orang. sorang depan, sorang belakang. masa nak gerak tu makcik tu bebel ape ntah kat aku..nak je aku cakap.."HAAA MEMANG AKU FAHAM!!!" hahaha...

on the way tu makcik tu suruh aku plak dayung..nasib baik la tau sikit2. so takde la dayung sampai terpercik air kat orang kan.

yg depan sekali tu paling expert mendayung! 

Masa dah sampai kat muara sungai tu makcik tu bagi signal..macam mintak duit. teringat la kitorang punya tour leader cakap kena bagi duit kat pendayung tu..so kutip la sorang 2 hengget..4 org jadi 8 hengget. aku bagi kat makcik tu, dia kata tak cukup! aigoo...aku bagi lagi 2 hengget.pastu dia blah camtu je..senyum pun tak. marah letew! 

4th DAY

Last day ni takde buat pape sangat since separuh hari je..awal pagi ramai dah bangun nak shopping kat Benth Thanh Market. Kononnya nak jadi 1st customer sebab org vietnam bagi murah kat 1st customer..bagi luck katanya! tapi bila sampai je kat market tu dah ramai orang..semua pakat nak shopping kain plak tu! ok semua jadi pemborong kain kejap! haha

Tengah hari semua packing nak pegi airport..nak balik malaysia. so sad!!! :(
Tapi sebelum tu sempat lagi singgah Central Post Office nak snap gambar!

Okay..tu je la trip Ho Chi Minh kitorang..balik malaysia majoriti dapat demam. badan aku sampai naik ruam. nasib baik takde pape.. hehe



p/s masa minum honey lemon tea tu kitorang ada bergambar dengan ular sawa..mana ntah gambar tu!