question mark???

exam oh exam...bila la nak abis?

esok baru start 1st paper...ACC418 yang aku tak brp nak minat. tapi apa blh buat, subjek tu dah ada dalam lesson plan, terpaksa la ambik. satu je harapan aku, aku harap tak repeat the same paper next sem. bkn paper akaun je, banyak lagi paper lain yang aku bengong plus blur plus blank. tak tau nak jwb apa...

i admit aku rasa jeles bila tengok kwn2 yg dah lepas bbrapa paper sdgkn kitorg satu pun belum. at least beban diorang dah kurang sikit. orang cakap, lagi cepat buat sesuatu yang kita tak sure blh buat, lagi kurang risiko nak mengalami nervous. bila tengok diorang balik n nampak happy semacam, aku nak sgt paper kitorang pun abis cepat. tak tau mcm mana nak terangkan perasaan aku bila tengok diorang dah free mcm tu...satu soalan utk korang, korang nak mati cepat ke nak mati perlahan? i bet korang mesti pilih mati cepat kan? sebab? sebab kurang sakit berbanding mati perlahan. nak ke endure kesakitan lama-lama??? that's what i feel right now. suffering sgt2!!! aku nak benda ni cepat abis.

weird kan? masa kwn2 lain belum mula paper diorang hari tu, aku rasa lega sgt paper kitorang lambat start. kononnya banyak masa nk buat revision. tapi as time pass, satu pun tak masuk dalam otak. apa yang aku fikir, nak balik cepat. tambah plak paper kitorang lambat abis. lagi sengsara. orang lain ramai dah balik, kitorang masih stuck kat kampus. tu yang tak best. tapi xpe, by hook or by crook, i'm still gonna do it.

tak sabar nak balik...balik...balik...!

nobody's perfect

When I'm nervous I have this thing I talk too much

Sometimes I just can't shut the hell up

It's like I need to tell someone anyone who'll listen

And that's where I seem to fuck up

I forget about the consequences, for a minute there I lose my senses

And in the heat of the moment my mouth's starts going the words start flowing

But I never meant to hurt you, I know it's time that I learnt to

Treat the people I love like I wanna be loved

This is a lesson learnt , I hate that I let you down and I feel so bad about it

I guess karma comes back around cause now I'm the one that's hurting

And I hate that I made you think that the trust we had is broken

So don't tell me you can't forgive me

Cause nobody's perfect, nobody's perfect

If I could turn back the hands of time

I swear I never wanna cross that line

I should of kept it between us but no I went and told the whole world how I feel and

So I sit and I realise with these tears falling from my eyes

I gotta change if I wanna keep you forever

Promise that I'm gonna try

I'm Not a *****, no not at all, but what I did it wasn't cool

But I swear that I'll never do that again to you

I hate that I let you down, and I feel so bad about it

I guess karma comes back around cause now I'm the one that's hurting

And I hate that I made you think that that the trust we had is broken

So don't tell me you can't forgive me

Cause nobody's perfect

because nobody's perfect!

*extracted from the song "nobody's perfect", by jessie j.

honey bee...

I am a honey bee
Shunned off from the colony
And they won’t let me in
So I left the hive
They took away all my stripes
And broke off both my wings
So I’ll find another tree
And make the wind my friend
I’ll just sing with the birds
They’ll tell me secrets off the world

But my other honey bee
Stuck where he doesn’t wanna be
Oh my darling honey bee
I’ll come save you
Even if it means I’ll have to face the queen

So I’ll come prepared
My new friends say they would help me
Get my loved one back
They say it isn’t right
The bees have control of your mind
But I choose not to believe that
So we’ll meet in the darkness of the night
And I’ll promise I will be there on time
We’ll be guided by my new friends the butterflies
Bring us back to our own little hive

Oh my other honey bee
No longer stuck where he doesn’t wanna be
Oh my darling honey bee
I have saved you
And now that you’re with me
We can make our own honey

*extracted from the song "honey bee" by zee avi

back to basics...

ok la...wanna clear things up a bit here...bukan nak kutuk, bukan nak caci, just nak explain my action. yes aku diam je bila duduk dgn korang, aku senyum je bila korang tanya, because that's the way i do it...I OBSERVE PEOPLE! before ambik further action, aku mesti siasat latar belakang org dulu. blog aku, aku punya pasal. takde sape boleh larang aku nak tulis pasal ape. even benda tu mengguris perasaan org yang baca. well, bila kita cakap benda BURUK yang betul, ofkoz org benci. tapi tu hakikat k...lambat laun orang akan tau.

i'll continue to write whatever i want in my blog. provocative as it will be, i'll continue doing it no matter what! remember Tun. Dr. Mahathir? he speaks the truth, the ugly truth. many people hates him, but does he care? he did what's necessary at that moment. his intention? why did he continue to provoke? he didn't seek for everyone's hatred, not at all. he did it to stand on his ground. his philosophy. he did it not for him, it was for everyone. it shows that he's not self-centered person at all. he's a good example of what i'm doing right now, i stand on my ground. i speaks the truth, not for me, for all of us. so that nobody will underestimate us...GOT IT??? i always talk about be a grown up...so please don't make a fuss about your tiny little drama in the class. "we" hate it! aku tak cakap pun aku perfect, aku tak cakap pun aku bagus. aku just menggunakan hak aku untuk bersuara, walaupun hanya kat blog. maybe cara aku pasif, tapi at least aku luahkan apa yang aku nak.

so kalau korang nak benci or pulaukan aku kat kelas, lantak korang la. aku dah tak tau nak buat apa dah...PERIOD!

eee....sibuk je nak tau!!!

pelik...weird...awkward...unusual...eee..semua la! =)

why did i say that??? sebab aku rasa pelik la...wahahaha....pelik knp ekk??? zaman sekarang benda2 pelik selalu terjadi...contoh? problem2...mula2 lansung takde masalah...tak lama lepas tu jadi masalah kecik...lama2 jadi besar. patut ke?

hahaha..tu intro je k...actually aku nak cte pasal manusia2 kt keliling aku. ofkoz bukan semua, tapi kalau nak senaraikan, ramai gak la...keh3...

masalah kecik je pun. tp knp blh jd besar? sebab aku yg besarkan!!!wakakaka

mne nak start ekk....hmmmm....aku ingat lagi masa tu kitorang tgh ada sport tournament kat kampus, ada la sorang ni dok membebel pasal sesuatu. aku pun usha2 la nak tau...dgr pnye dgr, rupanya diorang cte pasal nak buat baju...more precisely, jersi KELAS. yang peliknya org ni sibuk cakap psl komitmen dengan fakulti...dialog dia lebih kurang macam ni la..."kalau korang rasa bertanggugjawab dgn fakulti, buat la. kalau tak, tak payah"...kah3...aku rasa nak tergelak pun ada time tu...sebab? sebab apa yg dia ckp tu tak berasas la...apa kaitan buat jersi kelas dgn tanggungjawab pd fakulti? pelik2! helloooo!...listen to me minah oiii!!!kalau ko rs nak bertanggungjawab sgt dgn fakulti, kenapa buat jersi untk kelas je?knp tak buat utk satu fakulti????jawab2!!!hahahaha

tu satu hal...yang tu aku tak nak la argue sgt kan...yela, takut lak nanti kecik aty...maklumla, aku kalau nak argue mmg abis2an..haha...ok, selesai pasal discussion. sekarang diorang dalam proses n design jersi td. timbul lagi satu msalah. "orang2" ni tak pernah discuss dgn kitorang nak buat jersi. tiba2 nak mintak deposit. lps tu design tak pernah tunjuk dgn yg lain. ape kejadahnye! dont mind me la sbb aku dah tau sedikit sebanyak psl hal tu...yang lain???haaa..

benda tu tak abis kat situ k...panjang lagi ni...hahaha....actually tujuan nak buat jersi tu nak pakai time ada aktiviti especially aktiviti sukan. kebetulan lak kitorang ada sukan antara fakulti. so diorang pun dgn semangat berkobar2 nak buat jersi. dah settle dgn tempahan, design and whatever crappy things they do, sampai la sehari sblm penutupan sukan. tapi baju tak siap2. org yg buat tu pun satu hal, janji siap sblm penutupan, bila call dia ckp blom siap...bangang tol! so kalau dah ckp mcm tu confirm2 la tak siap kan! tu yang aku tak puas hati...!!!kenapa la nak menyusahkan org sgt...especially aku. kalau korang tak create mslah, aku takkan komen banyak tau!!!sampai hari ni baju tu tak siap2...sem dah nak abis.

actually aku tak kisah pun diorang nak buat apa. serius aku tak kisah. tapi kalau nak buat tu plan la betul2. kalau tak jadi kan ke susah...cakap bkn main, tapi harammmmm!!! aku dok perhati je ape diorang buat...mls nak campur...hahaha

ok la beb, cakap banyak pun tak guna...adiousss!!!

bila mata dah kuyu...

dah brp lama tak buat entry yang tak copy & paste kat blog ni???hahaha...maklumla takde masa, busy, banyak benda nak buat sebelum duduk final exam...(busy la sgt!!!). watever la k...now that i am here, so aku nak mencarut puas2 kat blogKu yang makin catchy ni...keh3..perasan tol la.GEDIK!

time nak dekat2 exam ni la aku nak sibuk2 update blog kan???ntah pape la...tp setakat nak update blog apa la sgt...hehe...time org sibuk study, aku bantai on9...mmg kena la ko jey...ala, study ke tak, sama je bg aku...baca nota+buku tak lama, pastu buat benda lain jugak...mmg tak boleh stay nak buat satu benda at one time...well, itu la aku...

bila ada ramai kawan, semua benda kita nak buat kan???kawan bukan kwn sembarangan, kwan rapat...lebih2 lagi kalau dapat kawan yg sama kepala. buat ape2 pun best! lagi satu, kawan ni banyak bagi pengaruh. kalau ada kawan yg sama kepala, benda lain mmg tak hirau dah...couple pun dah tak nak layan...haha

ever since i came here, i've learnt so many things. first and foremost i learned to be independent, doing things on my own. seriously its hard considering its my very first time being away from my family. but i'm lucky to find my friends quite fast this time...unlike before, i have to find people who really suits me to get close with.

second thing bila dah independent ni mcm mana nak cari kwn...maklumla zaman sekarang ni bukan senang nak cari kawan "susah" tapi bukan susah nak cari kawan "senang".tapi hakikatnya, dalam dunia ni mana ada kawan sama susah...kalau ada pun, orang yang dapat kwn mcm tu sgt2 beruntung la...tapi kalau setakat nak bagi nasihat, caring2 sikit tu apa sgt. semua org boleh buat. betul tak?

haa...satu lagi situasi aku nak bagitau...dari apa yang aku perasan dan aku percaya benda ni berlaku kat ramai orang. banyak orang bila dah ada orang caring pasal dia, dia plak buat tak tau je kat orang tu. kesian kan? tapi tu la hakikatnya. yang peliknya, org yg caring td tak tau nak give up. dia boleh endure lg walaupun org tak layan dia. sakit mcm mana pun hati dia bila org buat mcm tu, dia tetap tak kisah. sebab apa? takde lain la...ofkoz la sebab SAYANG...bila fikir2 balik, tak berbaloi kan dia buat mcm tu? yang sorang tu pun bodoh. dah ada org sayang sampai nak mati dia boleh buat donno je...tapi kalau hati dah kata "tak nak", nak buat mcm mana kan?terima je la...kih3

aisehh..jauhnya aku menyimpang...hahaha...tgh2 malam ni idea mencurah2 plak nak taip. ape la ko jey...buat blog rajin, belajar tak gerak2 gak...huh! ok la...malas nak cite panjang2..takut korang boring plak baca...haha...babai!see u next time keyh...

are u lucky or unlucky?

• Unlucky people often fail to follow their intuition when making a choice, whereas lucky people tend to respect hunches. Lucky people are interested in how they both think and feel about the various options, rather than simply looking at the rational side of the situation. I think this helps them because gut feelings act as an alarm bell - a reason to consider a decision carefully.

• Unlucky people tend to be creatures of routine. They tend to take the same route to and from work and talk to the same types of people at parties. In contrast, many lucky people try to introduce variety into their lives. For example, one person described how he thought of a colour before arriving at a party and then introduced himself to people wearing that colour. This kind of behaviour boosts the likelihood of chance opportunities by introducing variety.

• Lucky people tend to see the positive side of their ill fortune. They imagine how things could have been worse. In one interview, a lucky volunteer arrived with his leg in a plaster cast and described how he had fallen down a flight of stairs. I asked him whether he still felt lucky and he cheerfully explained that he felt luckier than before. As he pointed out, he could have broken his neck.

How to Deal With Homesickness During Study Away From Home

If you're planning to study far, you must prepare yourself for some feelings of homesickness. Regardless of how excited and prepared you are for your upcoming experience, you are bound to miss home. Feelings of loneliness and sadness are not uncommon for students who study away from home. What's the best way to deal with them?

Difficulty:

Moderate

Instructions

1. • 1

     Be prepared for homesickness to strike. Take some things on your trip that remind you of home. Pictures of friends and family, some of your favorite music or a favorite magazine are useful when you need to feel close to home.

   • 2

     Build a network of friends and colleagues while studying abroad. Combat feelings of loneliness by spending time with others.

   • 3

     Stay busy. Immerse yourself in your studies. Participate in additional activities outside of class. Look into a part-time internship or job while you study. It's hard to be homesick when you're busy.

   • 4

     Talk with others about how you're feeling. Build friendships with other students who are studying abroad. Chances are, they're dealing with homesickness, too. Talk with a counselor about your homesickness if you need to. Check if your university or study program offers counseling services.

   • 5

     Call home and talk to your parents and friends. Or, stay in touch by e-mailing them on a regular basis. It's important to stay connected to the people you love any way you can.

   • 6

     Think positive. Make a list of all the rewarding and exciting experiences you have as you study far from home. Note how these experiences have helped you grow as a person. When you're feeling homesick, take out your list and read it.

     *artikel diatas ditujukan khas untuk mereka2 yang sedang jauh dari family especially yang tgh study. homesick is normal my dear friends. it depends on us how to deal with it...i myself pun tgh homesick, tapi buat la apa yang patut untuk kurangkan perasaan tu ok!

aku yang dot...dot...dot...

di suatu pagi yang sepi, aku menaip entri ini...sambil mendengar lagu "trouble is a friend" dendangan lenka. "sungguh merdu suaranya", bisik hatiku. rakan2ku pula ada yang membuat kerja yang separuh siap, ada pula yang sedang sibuk menyidai baju2 yang baru diangkat dari mesin basuh yang berada tidak jauh dari tempat kejadian(rumah). sesungguhnya mesin basuh yang telah berusia entah berapa tahun itu amat berjasa kepada penduduk kolej. dengan bayaran sebanyak rm2.50, baju2 akan siap dicuci dalam masa 45 minit. tambahan rm2.00 akan mengeringkan terus baju2 tersebut lantas kami tidak perlu menyidainya lagi. pun demikian, mesin pengering yang disebut tadi sudah rosak menyebabkan kami perlu juga menyidai baju2 berkenaan sendiri.

amboi...panjang benar ceritaku tentang mesin basuh. berlih pula ke topik seterusnya. namun begitu aku tidak tahu topik hangat masa kini dan otakku yang blank menyulitkan lagi keadaan. setelah ku perah2kan otakku, namun tiada juga hasilnya. yang ada hanyalah hampas, hampas yang berkualiti tinggi. fuhhh...sungguh bernilai hampas otakku. lebih2 lagi pagi2 begini...

giliran katy perry pula mendendangkan lagunya untukku, "i kissed a girl, and i liked it....".begitulah seperti kata perry dalam lagu berkenaan. bukan niatku untuk menyebarkan unsur 18sx dalam blog ini, tapi hanya untuk menambah perasa hangat seperti maggi hangat berapi...tapi sebenarnya tidak la terlalu hangat, hanya suam2...siapakah yang faham kata2ku ini? aku sendiri tidak berapa faham. tapi tidak mengapa, aku hanya mahu membuat entri ini panjang...

sebagai kesimpulan, pagi ini sangat membuatku rasa boring dan teringin membuat sesuatu yang berfaedah...oleh sebab itu aku meng-update blog yang telah lama bersarang...

setakat inilah saja ucapan saya, sekian terima kasih...!mmmuahhh....luv uoollllsssss!!!

one word... BITCHES!!!

talking to the moon...

i know you're somewhere out there

Somewhere far away

I want you back

My neighbors think

I'm crazy

But they don't understand

You're all I have

At night when the stars

light up my room

I sit by myself

Talking to the Moon

Trying to get to You

In hopes you're on

the other side

Talking to me too

Or am I a fool

who sits alone

Talking to the moon

I'm feeling like I'm famous

The talk of the town

They say

I've gone mad

Yeah

I've gone mad

But they don't know

what I know

Cause when the

sun goes down

someone's talking back

Yeah

They're talking back

Do you ever hear me calling?

Cause every night

I'm talking to the moon

Still trying to get to you

In hopes you're on

the other side

Talking to me too

Or am I a fool

who sits alone

Talking to the moon

I know you're somewhere out there

Somewhere far away

*extracted from the song "talking to the moon" by bruno mars

please lah...!

missing???hmmm...what's the point of this feeling? i've been missing many kind of people that came by in my life, but none of them lasts.i mean the feelings toward them ..missing someone's suck!!!i hate it! why does this kinda feeling exist? i don't have the answer. all i know is i've felt it before and now i'm too saturated to feel it heavily...feels like i'm invincible now, not showing my emotions at least to people around me. i'm not vulnerable like before anymore. what if someone misses me so much??? all i can say is thank you soooo much, but save your feelings coz i can never feel the same way ...sorry. if u wanna miss me, its suits you, ITS YOUR FAULT ANYWAY!!! why did i say its your fault??? all these while i've been learning to control my emotions, my feelings...what did i get?

DON'T EVER ENTERTAIN YOUR FEELINGS!!!

its not worth it...its a sick game.

WHY? because u are overacting for sure... yes u can miss someone, but control your feelings please. dont get trough it too much. it will definitely torture you, not the person u miss...i hope you understand...

nak alek!!!

hmmm....tgh2 malam ni boring la plak. facebook pun dh tak best. jenguk2 blog la jawabnye. tak rasa nak update pun blog ni tp dh boring sgt, bole la...hahahaha...

nak story psl ape ek? bkn xde idea, idea melambak, tp xtau nak pilih yg mana satu nak buat entri.

aiyoo...rindunya pd kampung. dah berapa bulan tak tengok kpg. rindu buat benda2 yg aku slalu buat. lepak2, jalan2, round satu kpg.. bla..bla..bla...huhu...duduk kat tempat org ni mmg lain sikit. aku lagi la pelik. tau tak? ms mula2 sampai kat melaka ni, aku xde rs rindu kat kpg pun...knp la agaknye...haha...maybe sebab dah lama sgt terepruk kt kpg, so time tu teringin sgt nak klua. bila dpt klua, baru rasa lega. tu yang buat aku xde rs homesick pun...tapi semenjak dua menjak ni rasa nak balik berkobar2 plak. rindu punya psl. pelik kan? mula2 xde rs homesick, tp bila dh lama baru nk rs. NAK BALIK!!! sape la tak rindu kpg halaman kalau lama tak balik kan???huhuhu...tak sbrnye nak tggu 14 may. tanggal 14 may 2011, i'll be going back to sarawak. but not to mukah. to my kakak's place, miri. confirm mati kebosanan kalau balik situ, tp xpe la, at least boleh balik. nak balik mukah xtau la bila. tiket tak beli lg...hehehe

tapi sblm balik kena la struggle with stuffs at uitm first. TESTS, EXAMS!!!tensionnye!!!hopefully i will get through each paper with calm. sebab kalau ms jwb tu dh gabra, lps habis lagi la gabra...tak suka la mcm tu. so, i pray sgt2 ms jwb exam tu nanti rs mcm bleh buat walaupun jwpn semua merapu...fhm tak???tak faham??xpe la..biar aku je yg faham...i know myself better...kih3

ok la...mls nak taip banyk2, pening kepala aku...nak fikir next week pnye test lg, nak study lg, fikir keja2 lain lg, fikir nk bhg ms lg....chewahhh...mcm ade family plak kan???hahahaha

babai uollssss....chow!!!(bak kata lecturer BEL kitorg sblm meninggalkan kelas)