cerita seorang wanita

on this date 54 years ago, 

a very remarkable baby girl was born. she was raised by her magnificent parents. 

nobody ever expected her to be what she is today,

as a girl, she was just like any other normal kid.

but life was hard then,

her family is not the most fortunate family in the world,

fortunately, money is not what they ever counted,

it was the love, and the solidarity of the family that kept them happy and strong to live their days,

one thing lets to another, a few years later she became a woman like no other. 

beautiful, and became the village's sweetheart.

one beautiful day, she got married to a guy who became her soul mate until today. 

the marriage was planned though,

they did not know each other,

but like people say, "tak kenal maka tak cinta"

their love budded as they married, 

not long after that, 

she got pregnant, and got into labor, 

unfortunately her baby didn't had the chance to live long.

only God know how devastated she was,

after a long wait, she got pregnant again.
this time she succeeded! 

they have a lot of children, 10 to be exact but only 9 live until now. 

God really gave her the chance to have so many kids,

she called her kids her little "miracles"

along those years, she has been loving, caring, patient and full of courage to raise her kids. all the crying, the diapers, the naughtiness, and the hardship she has gone through,

today, she is old and her grey hair is starting to cover her head, but she is still the same loving person she used to be. 

her kids has grown up to be many kinds of people. 

she even has a grandchild now. 

she is not as healthy as before, but that doesn't stop her to give whatever she could to the people her love and dear. she is truly an extraordinary woman.

ever wonder who is the remarkable woman i mention above? she is the one who gave birth to me, raised me, feed me, tucked me into bed, hugged me when i got cold in the middle of the night, took care of me when i'm sick. she is my dearest mother. 

today is her 54th birthday and i am really glad that i get to live to see her and feel her love. 

i might not be there by your side to give you a hug right now, 

i could only send my love from far,

i love you so much mom and i always will.

you have made me into the person i am today and i know that must have been hard.

there's nobody else in this world who would ever worth it to replace you. you are one of a kind. 

the one who never gave up on us for better or worse. 

thank you so much for raising us perfectly.

i really miss you,

talking to you and hearing you laugh.

but just you wait, 

Insyaallah i'll be home soon. 

XOXO

my own talk show???

hi there readers! we meet again huh. well, only if you guys read my blog. LOL

i'm not in the mood to writing tonight, nor i am in the mood to study.

i know my next paper is on this coming Monday, 

but i just don't feel motivated to do my revision...

basically i have nothing to do now.

but hey, 

just a minute ago i had an idea for my blog!

maybe i should start my own segment! a permanent one..

it can be on Wednesdays perhaps.

i love Wednesday.

i'll write about my opinions about anything.

that should be fun right?
it's gonna be like my little talk show on my blog,

but on what topic should i write about?

LOVE???

yikes! hearing that word makes me sick. but maybe i should write about it. i might not have much experience but i can be hopeless romantic sometimes! who says geeks can't talk about love! but if i ever want to write about love and put it in my blog, people might think that my opinions cannot be used  and just some amateur thinking. but what the heck, there's nothing wrong with trying right? so, i'll consider. i've been looking at bloggers talking about love, but they didn't really write anything, they sketch, or draw, or doodles or anything. i suck at drawing, so it's impossible for me to follow their steps though the drawings look sweet and adorable and easier to be understood. i just have to accept that i have no talent! but i'm telling you guys that i'm not the "jiwang" type lah!

MOTIVATION???

this sounds better! i really like to give pep talk to people who think they couldn't be able to pull of something. i just like to push people and motivate them. i don't know why. there were times in my life that i wanted to be a psychologist and treat people with mental health. crazy right? but it just sounds like i myself is having mental health. okay, forget about that. my past experience has been special actually when it come to giving advice to people. some of my closest friends always seek for my advice whenever they are having problems or anything. when i asked them why on earth did they ask for my point of view, they said that i'm good at this "giving advice" thing. God knows how happy i was when they said that. but sometimes at some point, i can't really figure out what to say about whatever topic they told. so i guess it can be hard as well.

EDUCATION???

sounds pretty boring though. but it can be really helpful sometimes. for example like right now! it's the exam season! everybody might be needing help to help them study. to empower them to stay up late at night struggling to pass their papers. for me myself, i did posted an entry on my blog. i posted some tips to study last minutes. surprisingly i did got some positive responds from some readers.

MUSIC INDUSTRY CRITICS???

probably the most ridiculous thing i would come out with. i mean i've been dreaming to be a well known critics for the music industry like SIMON COWEL. but it's just in my dreams. it would not happen. not i a million years!

FASHION???
please don't make me laugh! i don't follow up current fashion trend, i'm not a fashion designer student.i mean i myself do not have the right sense of fashion. i can't even match my shirt with the right shoe color! let alone to criticize on fashion. it would only be an embarrassment! maybe i watched Ugly Betty , Project Runway and watch how Lady Gaga put on her quirky dresses that is sickly good but that doesn't make me good.

DOWNLOAD SITE???

honestly i like to download stuffs from blogs. movies, series, songs etc. i download them all. but to be the uploader? i don't think so. it's scary business. i could be caught anytime and my blog could be shut down for good! i must say no..

PHOTOGRAPHY???

let's see...i don't have a nice camera(DSLR), i have no talent, i can't edit photos..do i need to consider about this? i don't know. but i do like to see nicely edited photos.it's amazing how these people can do with such a simple photo. sure i upload photos in my blog, but my photos are plain. i didn't do any touch up. LOL

so, those are some of the few ideas i could come up with if i am to start my own segment. however, maybe i need some more time to think about it. it's hard to keep my blog alive and posting something fresh every week. it requires commitment and i don't think that i can do it. so, maybe next time yeah!

new start

Happy New Year guys!
dah 8 Januari baru nak wish kan...
so what's up? new year ni ada azam baru tak? ke azam sama macam tahun lepas lagi?
anyway, this is my first entry of the year.
lately agak busy. final exam la, praktikal la, relationship la..ehhh
tak macam semester2 lepas aku makin aktif berblogging masa musim exam.
sem ni aku agak "sedar diri" sikit sebab dah aim nak dapat DL sem ni...InsyaAllah!
kalau tak memang buku aku langsung tak bukak.
asyik dengan online je 24 hours.
sekarang pun aku online jugak tapi masih terkawal lagi...
minggu ni aku free sikit sebab next paper hari Isnin(14Jan)
so aku ada masa sikit nak mengarang barang sepatah dua kat blog ni...

ok la...
tahun ni tak macam tahun2 lepas
tahun2 lepas aku akan sentiasa tukar template blog aku.
re-branding gitewww.
takde la cantik mana kan...
btw, semalam aku buat analisis pasal blog ni.
aku pegi cek speed blog aku loading, size blog aku dan lain2...
so result dia macam kat bawah ni...

mula2 aku guna web tool. saiz blog aku besar la jugak walaupun load time dia 0.83 seconds. saiz should be below 100KB. baru reader tunggu loading tak lama.

yang ni aku tak tau nak explain. haha...

okay, ni performance blog aku...speed nak loading memang laju. grade A okay! 

ehhh...macam mana gambar ni ter-upload pulak ni??? hehe...special moment! awwww!

p/s semoga tahun ni blog aku semakin baik...dan bahagia. hihi