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i never want to say all these crap about U...but whenever i feel down, and i've got no one to turn to, i write what i feel...

what i hate about U...

i hate U for not fulfilling what U say...U say U that U are coming but U never did.

U say that U will be there but U changed plan without telling me anything...

U know what? i'm extremely frustrated! i'm not mad, i'm not angry, but i honestly feel it's not fair!

i hate U for making me have feelings for U...deep feelings!

yes i started our relationship, but all i ever wanted is for us to be friends...not more than that!

i never thought that U would make me feel this way to U.

now i'm very in to U...i blame U for it!

i hate seeing U flirting around with other people!

jealousy i would say...

U once said "jealousy means LOVE"

yes i admit it!

what i love about U...

i love the way U care for me...yes U are caring.

U tell me to eat well, sleep, be careful in my journeys and many more...

when U did all that, i feel happy!

maybe it means nothing to U but for a person like me, it means the world!

i love your that U are a jealous type...

like U said, "jealousy means LOVE"...i hope that U feel the same way

your jealousy makes me feel more secured, more careful to mix around people...

it's not that i like it being controlled by anyone, but sometimes it's not a bad thing letting somebody to control my movements...somebody like U...

i love the way U smile...
your smile is sweet, cute, adorable etc!
i know it might sound ridiculous but your smile is all of those...
looking at your pictures seeing your smile i everything for me.

i love the way U talk...
all i can say is U talk like hell! U never stop talking...
U always know what to say
and i just love it!!!

p/s i might not be publishing this but all i know is i'm still in love with U!!! =)

my life is...

SAYA BAHAGIA...I'M HAPPY!!!

poyo!

my fellow Sarawakian!

walk2, eat air!

candid!

lost tourists!

say "fromage"!!!

SEKIAN TERIMA KASIH...=)

p/s thinking of u <3

aku yang bernama "putih"

namaku putih...putih dan ada smiley :)...

orang tak tau aku ada nama tu, aku sendiri baru tau...

dari mana aku tau?

aku "cekidaut" phone "dia"...

aku cek inbox, maka tersenarai la banyak sms yang di-send dari orang yang bernama putih :)

aku musykil, lalu aku bukak satu persatu...

bila diamati, sms2 berkenaan macam pernah ku lihat

rupa2nya, semuanya sms yang aku send...

aku tak tau kenapa dia letak contact name aku as putih :)

apa maknanya? sebab aku putih ke? putih sangat ke aku??? (perasan sial!!!)

aku tak tau apa maknanya...

mungkin dia tak mau namaku terpampang apabila sms masuk, dan orang nampak sms tu...

dia tak mau orang tau itu sms dari aku...

tapi aku tak kisah...

yang aku tau, ini kisah kami berdua

kalau orang tak tau, aku peduli apa?

aku lagi suka!

  

p/s aku sayang "dia"...sayang sgt!

GOD DAMN IT!!!

OMG!!! malam ni ehhh...pagi ni rasa macam shit je! 

damn it! aku rasa macam kantoi! tapi bukan setakat "macam", 

aku rasa aku dah betul2 kantoi! sialllllll!!!

aku dah try buat as normal as i could, 

act like there's nothing strange is happening, 

but still, 

people can smell it!

lepas ni dah sah2 tak boleh nak cover2 coz org dah syak!

WATEVER LA!!!

tapi apa yang aku harap, benda ni cepat2 tutup...

FYI, it's my private business for god sake!

nobody from outside should know about it...

so tolong la!

tolong sangat2 simpan benda ni elok2...

simpan dalam hati je!

hmmmmmm.....

esok dah la ada test,

pastu datang plak benda2 macam ni! HARAM!

pening2!!! memang semak glerrr!

nak rokok!!! bagi aku rokok!!!

p/s whatever happen, aku still sayang kau! i'll always do babe! kau dah ubah hidup aku! <3

stay up late post

macam h***m! keja tak siap gedik nak update blog!

well, macam tak kenal aku kan! selagi otak aku tak tenang, jangan harap aku nak sentuh keja...so skrg boleh dikatakan otak aku tak tenang la.

ingat nak siapkan keja beberapa jam yang lalu, and tdow right after aku wish gudnite kat "dia", but semua bertangguh. start buat keja pukul 10, then melarat ke pukul 11, pukul 12, pukul 1, 2, 3, and sekarang dah dekat pukul 4 pagi...

tadi sempat gak sms ngn "dia " kejap...aku bgtau la aku sibuk sket, nak buat keja...tapi at the same time aku ckp aku dah ngantuk...pastu dia reply, "buat slow2"...ok laaa, aku pakai nasihat tu. and now dah berjam keja aku bertangguh sebab ikut nasihat tu...hikhikhik...jangan marah k...tak salahkan U pun...aku memang sengaja buang masa.

nasib baik la esok klas 2.30 ptg...kalau kelas pagi mampos la aku!

p/s terasa gatal di bahagian tertentu! HAHAHAHA

facts about bloggers

hye all...

it's been a long time since i came around, it's been a long time but i'm back in time...alamak, lady gaga la plak...HAHA...

rindu I tak??? nak gedik sikit nih...hik3

main point aku hari ni nak isi masa lapang plus mengurangkan keboringan yang dah cecah tahap melampau kat sini...rs macam nak bunuh diri je weyhhh!!!

ok la, sape readers blog ni yang juga seorang blogger? angkat tangan macam saya...

korang tau tak fact about bloggers? aku pun tak tau, but as far as i know, there are a lot of things we could see when it comes to blogging as well as bloggers...after a little considerations, discussion and gives and takes with the highest council(myself), it came to the following results...cekidaut!!!

1) bloggers are people full of emotions...but they don't know how to express those feelings. WHY?

take a good look at any post by personal bloggers...how they use their words in their sentences...normally they will use what i call "ayat bunga2" in their blog...direct bukan, indirect pun bukan...bloggers ni suka pusing2, menyimpang sana-sini sampai readers tak tau diorang discuss pasal apa...so kalau perhatikan betul2, diorang memang nak sampaikan at least satu emosi kpd readers, but the thing is their words are so complicated!

2) bloggers are people full of lies...cakap tu, cakap ni, nasihat tu, nasihat ni but they themselves pun sama je. macam h***m...HAHAHA...why did i say that? coz I am a blogger myself! imagine u're reading someone's blog and blogger tu bagi nasihat kat korang about hoe to deal with certain problems...readers for sure akan baca dgn teliti. but when it comes to the bloggers themselves, what they give is not what they practice...but the thing is, whatever they say in their posts, ada kebenarannya...nasihat yang diorang bagi pun boleh pakai.

3) bloggers are a bunch of people who don't have self-esteem...in other word, they are "pendiam" in reality.

yup, believe it or not, it's true. bloggers yang mula2 buat blog akan post entry2 skema nak m****s! tapi bila dah lama, perhatikan apa yang jadi. they transformed into the most daring people ever in terms of their way of speaking! so what's the downside of blogging? very the BENEFICIAL beb! berbaloi jd blogger ni! HAHA

4) bloggers are story tellers...kalau masuk bertanding bercerita memang jadi champion! bab reka2 cerita ni bloggers memang pandai. betul tak? bayangkan korang tgh baca entry kat satu blog ni...bloggers ni plak story pasal satu kisah menyedihkan. TOUCHING gitu! masa baca tu korang boleh plak nangis siap ready satu kotak tisu depan PC...at the very beginning of the enrtry blogger tu mention yang kisah tu adalah the very true story of him/her, tiada kaitan dgn yang hidup atau yg telah mati. bila dah habis baca, korang percaya bulat2 cerita ala2 touching tu...all I can say is TAKDE MAKNANYA!!! all those stories are just rekaan semata-mata!

5) bloggers are damn cute, handsome, beautiful...but at the same time very shy2 cat...dalam blog bukan main kutuk orang sana-sini, kritik orang tu, ktitik orang ni, KECOH je lebih! tapi bloggers tak sebarkan fitnah k! but the point is, bila korang jumpa blogger ni in person, u'll begin to realize that what u imagine of them in their blog is not the same as they really are...but one thing for sure, bloggers are CUTE!!! setuju tak my fellow bloggers???HAHAHAHA

that's all i wanna say...perah otak berjam2 dah semata2 untuk entry ni.kalau korang ada idea nak tambah, komen la.kalau tak pun PM me...next is I nak buat assignment yang langsung tak disentuh...lalalala~babai u alls!!!

p/s ngantuk glerrr...zzzZZZ

maybe

Maybe I'm a dreamer
Maybe I'm misunderstood
Maybe you're not seeing the side of me you should
Maybe I'm crazy
Maybe I'm the only one
Maybe I'm just out of touch
Maybe I've just had enough

Maybe it's time to change
And leave it all behind
I've never been one to walk alone
I've always been scared to try
So why does it feel so wrong
To reach for something more
To wanna live a better life
What am I waiting for?
'Cause nothing stays the same

Maybe it's hopeless
Maybe I should just give up
What if I can't trust myself?
What if I just need some help?




*extracted from the song "maybe" by sick puppies






p/s still in pain(physically) when posting this...=))

FLY

I came to win, to fight, to conquer, to thrive, to survive, to prosper, to rise...TO FLY! 

I wish today it will rain all day. Maybe that will kinda make the pain go away. Trying to forgive you for abandoning me. Praying but I think I’m still an angel away, yeah strange in a way. Maybe that is why I chase strangers away. They got their guns out aiming at me but I become Neo when they aiming at me. Me against them. Me against enemies, me against friends. Somehow they both seem to become one. A sea full of sharks and they all smell blood. They start coming and I start rising. Must be surprising, I’m just surmising. I win, thrive, soar, higher, higher and more fire.

Everybody wanna try to box me in, suffocating every time it locks me in. Paint they own pictures then they crop me in but I will remain where the top begins Cause I am not a word, I am not a line, I am not a boy that can ever be defined. I am not fly, I am levitation. I represent an entire generation. I hear the criticism loud and clear. That is how I know that the time is near. So we become alive in a time of fear and I ain't got no motherfucking time to spare. Cry my eyes out for days upon days. Such a heavy burden placed upon me but when you go hard your nay’s become yay’s. Yankee Stadium with Jay’s and Kanye’s. 

Get ready for it. I came to win!!!

*extracted from the song "fly" by nicki minaj ft rihanna