it's not unusual

i wish i have something good to say to you right now,

but honestly all i can say is i'm sorry,

sorry for not being sensitive enough to understand you,

for not being so knowledgeable enough to know that those will hurt you,

i'm sorry my dear.

i really do...

just a few moments earlier i said that i made my blog to express my feelings,

because i'm clueless, speechless, and wordless when it comes to face to face conversation,

so here i am,

writing this entry,

just for you,

a very special one,

and i hope you will like it,

though it's not perfect.

You are adorable!

first of all i just wanna say that i've never known anybody like you before,

you make me smile for just receiving a text from you,

make me laugh just by listening to your jokes,

make my heart beats fast by hearing you say sweet2 words.

i can honestly say that i've never felt anything like this with anyone before.

then i knew you,

sure we haven't known each other for a long time,

but i feel like i've known you since forever.

i mean is this for real?

you make my world go round again!

Awww so cute!

i admit it, 

you are cute!

your smile,

your voice,

your laughter.

sure i met a lot of cute people in my entire life,

but you've got another package with you,

and that is your charm.

We have a lot in common!

i've never known anybody who has a lot of things in common with me before,

until i met you,

day by day,

i just discovered one after another,

things that we both share,

our interest,

our passion,

our character,

our emotions...

all i can say is,

WOW! we've got chemistry!

Your sensitivity is your charm!

i know you are quite sensitive,

i can see it,

for all my life,

i've been pretty sensitive myself,

that makes us no different,

i understand how you feel,

i understand it when you're sad,

i understand it when you're down.

but above all,

one thing that i learnt,

please don't change anything about you,

just be yourself,

whoever you are.

people are going to talk about us,

mostly bad things,

but please don't take them as an obstacle,

take them to make you feel more powerful.

i know it's hard,

i've been struggling too,

but the best thing to be done is,

IGNORE!

well sometimes ignorance is bliss.

i don't know what am i talking about actually,

i guess i'm just a little down right now,

and feeling guilty too.

if by any chance that you read this,

i hope you understand,

and forgive me,

and accept me for who i am,

because i'm doing my best to love and to be loved by you. :)